I know, another one. I just love her. #jackrussell (Taken with instagram)
Stop this train
“Stop This Train”
No I’m not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but…
I just can’t sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly won’t someone stop this train
Don’t know how else to say it, don’t want to see my parents go
One generation’s length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t but honestly won’t someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train
See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
‘til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take this speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
Cause now I see I’ll never stop this train
(think I got ‘em now)- John Mayer
One week later after seeing my dad and spending time with him in his ‘paradise like’ surroundings of Maui I have been reflecting on my time He and I spent together. Dad and I have had our ups and downs. Like so many other parents and their children its not always easy. I envy so many people that have had not spent precious time in conflict or worse yet kept away from a parent because of it.
I know that all of these things happened to us for a reason and it was important to us both to go through these challenges. I just want to make sure that he knows that I do care about him. I want him to know that I wish that I could take back the wasted years and make it up.
Dad is in pretty good health. He has some issues that often are part of aging but he is well taken care of. Still as with all people you never know how much time you will have with them. This trip left me feeling more aware of this. His passion for so much of life is a joy to share. But his passions also make him very strongly opinionated and he is bull headed. I have learned to roll with it as I have become wiser realizing that you can’t change someone that doesn’t want to change.
So many times I have said so many hurtful things to my dad. Those will never go away. All I can do is see to it that I don’t continue to hurt him. Let him know that I love him and show that by respecting him.
I spend a lot of time with my mom. She is one of the best friends I have. I think about what it would be to not be able to have her to contact. She and I have some differences of opinion but we seem to handle it much better. maybe its because we have so more in common that we do enjoy.
Whatever the reason I love them both dearly. Their strengths have been shining examples to me in what you can do if you really want it. They both have taught me more from their individuale journeys and the triumphs and disappointments that have helped mold me into who I am.
I don’t want to stop the train because the ride has to reach its destination but taking it a little slower and appreciating the view along the tracks, now thats something to wish for.
